I knew it was a mistake to allow myself to be optimistic.
Over that last few days the vibes I’ve been getting concerning the job I’ve been interviewed for, and am currently doing as a placement, have been far from positive. I know there were several other people interviewed and I’ve heard phrases such as “the quality of the applicants has been unbelievably high” and “difficult choices need to be made” which lead me to think that the news is not going to be good. Add to this the fact that if it was good news I think I would have been told last Friday and the conclusion I reach is that I’m not going to get offered a job.
Another factor in these negative vibes was an incident that occurred on Wednesday. For very little reason there was a disagreement between the Basic Skills Tutor and one of the clients which quickly escalated into a full blown row. However, it seemed to blow over, it all went quiet and I thought no more of it. I left the room for a couple of minutes, only to return and find it had kicked off again and there were now 3 members of staff involved. Anyway, it all got calmed down again and I had to leave shortly afterwards to attend college. The next morning however, I was called into the bosses office and asked what had happened, who did what, what would I have done, could I have done anything etc. Had it affected how I viewed to role, did I think if I had been involved I could cope, how would I handle it if it happened to me in the future? It seems that it was all very serious, not a minor spat as I thought. In the process of this “interview” (and it did seem almost as if I was being re-interviewed for the job) the boss asked me if I needed to work. She said that she had heard a rumour that my personal circumstances meant that I didn’t actually need a job. Now as well as being none of her business, this seemed to me that she was setting me up for an unpaid placement rather than going to offer me a job. This question, and its implications have been both annoying me and worrying me ever since.
As a consequence of the above, I’ve been on a real downer the last couple of days. I don’t really want to do anything or to speak to anyone. I did drag myself out for a drink last night, meeting a friend but I was pretty lousy company and didn’t really enjoy it. And for the first time, I’m not looking forward to going in tomorrow.
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