Work is a funny thing. You spend 20 years of your life going through university and are expected, by the end of this, to know how you want to spend the rest of your life. But I don’t think that anyone really does.
I have spent all of my time at university and the last few years trying to make a decision, but I just kept coming across reasons not to. I have explored a whole range of options and always seem to be struck down by the lack of natural talent. My skill is to approach things logically, even the most creative things. My degree is in Lighting Design, for theatre and concerts and even this I approached with logic leaving emotion and in a lot of cases creativity aside. My designs were always well received, but i feared that they were often what people were expecting to see: the logical and lateral choice.
I find that I am drawn to creative passtimes and have, in my childhood, spent a lot of time performing in shows, giving readings and dancing. I think as I have gone through school and university I have become more logical and less nativley creative. I would love to be a musician and have, during University, spent much time studying music and playing instruments. Each one a struggle as I seem not to be natrually talented in music, even though it is one of my true loves. Sitting down to a good album, modern or classical is a great way to while away the hours or a long drive. I will continue to practice but with an inert understanding that I will never be the session pianist that I would truely love to be.
Again a creative love of mine is cooking. Cooking and music side by side are the perfect combination. Jams, cakes, roasts and wonderful flavor combinations delight me. Also the challenge of Gluten Free cooking for my girlfriend is a great challenge. I have the will and maybe some skill but the environment of a hot crowded kitchen is not the ideal place for me. I am a home cook, cooking from my garden and as fresh as I can get. I am a seaside boy and love the countryside, the best home I can imagine is on the coast with a good swathe of land to grow things on my own small holding. Not really my girlfriends cup of tea but I think she will come round.
Finally I would love to write. I am always being chastised about my insessent talking and bizzare streams of ideas. I know a little bit about quite a lot of things and researching for writing just seems like a natrual enjoyment of learning for me. Although the final product may be a bit predicatble in its logic, but hopefully like my music, it will all get better.
Blogging is my first step into daily writing and getting used to putting my ideas onto paper. Blog posts and “blessays” hopefully will boost my skill and experience. Maybe! I have some good Ideas but feel my cocentration may wain long before the 200+ pages are completed. Ease myself in gently I think, best way.
Hopefully some short stories will make their way onto this blog in due course, and maybe one of those will flourish into a full novel. Only time will tell, so, watch out.
A
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